i don't know how to put this across.
somethings in life, at this period, things may seem really precious.
a gemstone, or a sparkling diamond sort of thing.
who cares if the gemstone cuts upon contact, you somehow deemed it as sth perfect, sth tht is irreplaceable, sth that you can give up anything for.
despite the exorbitant fees, you willingly paid for it nonetheless.
however, no Man knows what the future holds for themselves.
perhaps everything will just be forgotten and lost.
but what are the chances for that to happen?
what if 10years down the road, as we looked back from afar, we realise that gemstone we clung on so dearly to, is nothing but rubble,a mere piece of stone.
and whatever we are left with are scars caused by gripping onto them so tightly then.

theres nothing to lose, you might think.
but then again, whats there to gain?
you see it as an agreement, but you know clearly that its a gamble you are taking.
A gamble of your own feelings when youre back to reality.
can you truly say that the void has been filled, or will it cause a deeper hole?

true, i didnt been through what you had, i don't understand.
but what about what i had been through?
i don't know if this is good news, but you may not be alone.
i was so glad you found someone of age to guide you and give you advice,
really happy for you.
someone of similar background, someone of a similar past,
someone who can really give sound advice which i seriously think makes great sense even though i didnt hear it directly from her, but ironically, from you.
but seriously, where did the advice go to?
i don't know either.

perhaps you think the argument was uncalled for, and could have been avoided, that
would have been possible, if i wasnt a friend- your friend.